I have fallen down a rabbit hole
of doubt and despondency,
sorrow and self-pity,
It happened slowly
and caught me unaware.
At first, I tripped over recent sorrows
of circumstances beyond my control…
I stumbled over
when I forgot my own strength
to bear the weight of my aloneness…
as I began digging up the past,
to examine where I had buried lost opportunities…
I opened old wounds
and reminisced over old loves…
counted up broken promises,
dashed hopes and unfulfilled expectations…
I unglued the pieces of my broken heart
inspecting it for evidence of harm done to me.
Little by little
I fell in deeper…
feeling unloved and unwanted…
struggling to find my relevance
in this present time.
I can now see a light above me
from the hole I am in
pointing the way out.
But I will rest awhile in this darkness…
I know this place
I have been here before.
I will familiarise myself with the dark
so that when I open my eyes
I will see through the darkness.
I will gather my energy to heal.
I will begin my climb out of this rabbit hole.
I will say goodbye and bid a blessing to
old wounds, old loves…
I will count the lessons learned and blessings received
instead of broken promises and lost dreams…
I will re-glue the broken pieces of my heart
I will practice Forgiveness…
Remembering I am loved, and I am enough.
Believing that all is well and will be well…
And that this too shall pass.
I will ask for the Grace to change what I need to change.
I will grab the rope of Hope to aid me.
I will surface again out of this rabbit hole…
a changed me…
better off for the time I spent in the darkness,
for the lessons learned and the blessings received
from being in the rabbit hole.
2 thoughts on “Rabbit Hole”
Beautiful. Remember you can ring at anytime for a chat and please do call over when this restriction is over. Take care and thinking of you Faye
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I hope that as you take time to heal courageously, you will also find strength and unfailing hope to guide you in these difficult and testing times.
Sending you kind and good thoughts in the hope that they can raise your spirit.
Hang in there and keep on doing what you are doing. Like the walk on the Camino, just focus on putting one foot in front of the other.